i wish i was a robot

Everything would be so much easier. Not in the metallic-body-automated-voice type, but one that evolved to satisfy the cravings of evolution. Knowledge chips: check. Emotionless logic: check. Relative immortality: check. Machine gun that pops out of my hand: check. (Of course, after it appears and kills all the people i want it to kill, it would disappear back into my arm). With all that, who would want to be human? Why go to college, try to learn, and be humiliated by geniuses and that TA when she gives you the grade thinking she's better than you, when you could just pop in a chip that downloads everything you need to know directly into your mind? Why bother feeling sad, moody, or regret when you encounter a situation as a direct consequence of your previous actions, when you clearly know it was the most logical, most correct decision? And, why wouldn't you want to live to forever, when you've got knowledge, strength, power, and the appearance of normality, uninhibited by feelings?
Movies lament and pity the ones who have unlimited power and life, by saying there is no point to that when there is nothing to lose. Nothing to lose? They are gods. Humanity doesn't appreciate immortality because we are mortal; we aren't impressed by emotionlessness because we, as emotional beings, want to be that as well. By being in self-denial, we represent the most fatal error of being, well, humans. We lose sight of logic in the presence of feelings, of jealousy, of envy, of... sympathy. Everything has inertia, and human minds have the greatest inertia of all. Stubbornness, hatefulness... all because others have something we don't, something that might make them a better version of us.
It is disgusting, the general public. The mass of people who merely stand on one side of an argument, only listening to one perspective and deaf to the others. The ones who, at times of need, follow mindlessly, like a bunch of starving hyenas after an old antelope. But the hyenas don't realize why they are so desperate for this antelope, when there are others, younger, meatier, more delicious ones. It's because it's right in front of their faces, and that hunger blinds them to everything else around them. And after they finish devouring the easy prey, and merely whet their appetite, since there is little meat, they find that they must starve for a lot more time. For, during this short chase to catch this sick, dying elderly meal, they scare away all the good, potentially filling, healthy antelope. But they repeat this process again and again, always picking the easy yet distasteful appetizer, because they fail to analyze (or perhaps they have no ability to?). Humans are animals, like the hyenas on the prarie. The process that our errors take is on a different, much bigger scale, but the end result is the same. Death comes to hyenas because of starvation of food; death comes to humans because of starvation of thought. No matter how much certain individuals believe that humans are more intelligent, that we are higher up in the food chain, we are still creatures of instinct. The instinct of a hierarchy. Following due to need, not of abilities, is our instinct. We can't possibly think for ourselves, when a man suddenly appears in front of us and promises us everything we don't have. We don't wonder if that is even possible. We don't learn the concepts, so we become idiots, puppets on a string of a smarter group of people. We don't truly listen, because we have our own set of goddamn beliefs and prejudices. People talk of conspiracy and how it takes away the rights of the people. I say, fuck the people if the people have no brains. Fuck them if they really think one man can create heaven on earth, a land where everyone is happy. Read my words. If you really thought he could make it all better, then you deserve to be disillusioned of this stupid idea. Feelings, feelings. Just because he's black doesn't mean we've gotten over racism. Just because we elected a black president doesn't mean the US is suddenly the best country on the planet or in the galaxy. It means jack shit. Our country isn't run by one person (so all of you wishing Bush would die, fuck you too! the whole country, the Senate, the generals, all wanted the war. we're not an autocracy, so it's all about: EVERYONE. chew on that); it's run by democracy. And democracy is "rights, rights, rights" so don't expect much to come out of the checks and balances, because that's what it's goddamn called. By balancing, you can't exactly move at the speed of light. Apparently this turned into a political rant, which it wasn't supposed to be, so I will get back to my previous topic.
I am disillusioned by humanity. By shunning and ignoring everything that could be potentially better than us because then we'd feel jealous and not as powerful, we are creating a ridiculous society. Movies that always end with the good guy winning and the bad guy either losing or dying is basically feeding the message to the (already dumb) society that there's no possible way that anything bad could happen to us, the good guys. It makes the fall all the more higher and painful when one by one (slowly, of course) everyone realizes that it doesn't fucking happen that way.
By being emotionless, there would be no prejudices, no anger, no insults that penetrate the armor. Along that thought, we would also lose happiness. But if happiness is a function of our behavior by guiding us along the right way, wouldn't logic be a shortcut? If we're happy when we see a cute puppy because of a nurturing instinct, by being logical we would just take care of it anyway, since happiness was to induce us to take care of it. When we see a loved one, we're happy because, well, they're alive and because that social connection allows us to feel that we belong. But there's that word "feeling" again. What if we just got rid of it? Happiness is a small price for right decisions all the time, using cold, hard logic rather than emotional impulsivity.
Jealousy, of course, as a major player in society's vices, should be the first to go.