Day after day, it seems that things start piling up, one after another, until your day is no longer yours. Its an amalgamation of homework, work, classes, reading, studying, with occasional breaks at the most inopportune times. When this starts to happen, I debate what I am doing in life that I am constantly going. I start to despise homework and classes, and begin to wish for a different life. But what does that solve?
Life is about hard times and good times, right? That’s what they say, the things that don’t kill you make you stronger. But sometimes, that doesn’t seem like enough reasoning to trudge through and not sleep the whole day away in a wondrous succession of dreams. But, I guess, once you push through, and accomplish what you need to do, it does taste sweeter than just not doing anything.
Nevertheless, that’s after the fact. Sometimes, in the moment, there just seems to be no bright light at the end of the tunnel. There are times when you look ahead, 12 hours, maybe even a day, and even then, you don’t see anything besides work, work, and more work. In those times, I get so dismayed. I think, I wish I didn’t work, though, when i realize it’s payday, I reconsider. But, is this what life will always be like until I’m old and retired? Working so much, having a little personal time, and feeling continually tired? I hope not.
In my dreams, when I get older. I’ll have a nice job, work only weekdays, and not weekends. I’ll have a nice home, be in a nice relationship, have enough money to go shopping on weekends, and take the occasional vacation to the beach. But right now, I’m brought back to reality. Tomorrow, i get up, go to school, come home, change, go to work, come home and sleep, get up for work, and then come home and enjoy a restful evening followed by a long awaited weekend. I guess, even though i don’t feel up for it, even though i’d so much rather sleep in, i’ll get up and do what i have to.
So, in the time that I find myself complaining and wishing for something else, I have to push myself to find things that cheer me up. To take pleasure in the small things. So, I challenge myself to think of funny things that happened in the past, fun things i can do after work, fun people i will work with, things like that.
Now, since i do not think this entry is long enough, time for random rants to blow off some steam.
Cars should not be able to lock whilst the key is inside, and thank god for brothers who are experts at getting keys out of a car.
It’s not fun when a person in your group does NOT add your information to their corresponding paper, especially when they’re really weird.
Spanish tests should not be about minutia! It’s hard enough to read history in spanish, don’t ask who wrote what!
Why must it be so hard to find time to hangout with the people you want to hang out with?
Why is everything at Rhite Aid so expensive?
Why does this medicine make me so damn sleepy?
Why do some people text so slow?
How can some words make you so happy for no apparent reason?
Why doesn’t Farmville load?!
Why do i even like that game?
Why do 6 hrs at home go by so fast, and 6 hrs at work so slow?
Why is Modern Family such a great show?
Why is gas so expensive?
Why does my computer’s battery need t be changed so soon?
Why do my Philosophy teachers feel the need to grade so harshly?
Why does time pass by so fast when you don’t want it to?
Why does my nailpolish never stay on for long?
Why didn’t i ever print pictures at target before? It’s so cheap! 
And lastly, my random though of the day- Why does fire burn up? shoudn’t it burn down and out?
*all rhetorical, don’t need anyone to answer*
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